inconsistent omg!

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1st episode
Happended when I was in jakarta, for office vacation.
I meet my friend's aunt, they were just gorgeaous, generous, cute, perfect carrier, perfect education, mature and amazing. But they didn't have husband or even boyfriend till that time, till today even. And I was wandering what's wrong with them? Nothing. So, there could be something wrong with all of single man in all over the world.
Or maybe god thinks that no man in this world equal with them. They need a man from heaven. Probably.
I hope they always happy. Amin

And, after that toughts, I wrote this
Title: morning confusion
Saya takut ketika saya sudah sangat tua dan tidak menemukan pasangan hidup saya. Entah kenapa, rasa takut ini begitu tiba2.
Padahal dulu saya sangat yakin untuk hidup sendiri saja. Lalu? Saya harus apa sekarang? Pasrah kepada Tuhan saja? Kata teman saya, jodoh itu memang di tangan Tuhan, tapi kalo tidak kita ambil ya akan tetap d tangan Tuhan. Lalu? Saya harus apa sekarang?

Episode 2:
Hummm... I've never had a boyfriend. I have lots of friend, boys. But we have none of special relationship. Okay. Then, something happened.
And, I wrothe this to someone: "I know you're not serious, and please don't make me think that it is serious."

Before that sentence, I was thinking that I'll have a boyfriend.
And after that sentence. It's done. No way. No second chance. Whatever.

I'm so brave.. I feel relieved. Oh God! But please,, get me my soulmate. I want a husband!

Episode 3:
One day, I openned my blackberry memo. And I found those two memos. And I wrote this:
Title: be brave! I'm so brave!
Setelah membaca 2 memo saya tentang saya butuh pacar, suami, atau apapun itu, saya malah kembali yakin untuk hidup sendiri saja.
Please god, please make me just love you, only you god. Amin

Ahahhahaaa.
Inconsistency is the one that always consistent.
But this time, I'm sure. Single is gotta be great. My other half soul is in heaven. Waiting for me. I just need to enjoy my single life on earth, and will life in pair in the life after.

Episode 4:
Couple days ago, I was thingking about telling my mom about this, about my decision to be just single. But I guess, it would just make the situation worst and will end up with stupid argue.
Debat kusir. I guess my mom will laugh, and on the other day, she would tell that story to my servant or her staff. Omg!
I'll make it my secret. Till today, I decide not to tell anyone. Because.........

God, please give me a happy life, bright career and caring friend.